No is such an ugly word.

ASDLKGHLJKSD!!! (That's how I was feeling earlier today)

I am frustrated. I won’t lie to you. I am frustrated, I am angry, I am sad. I am a whole bowl of emotions. Don’t worry I have plenty of happiness and joy. I hate the word no. I do, I hear it plenty every day and I hate it. I hate when things don’t go the way I want them to. It pisses me off. I guess you could say I like to be in control. Yet sometimes I have no choice. I have found that sometimes in life the answer no is presented to us. We have something beautiful in our life, and that is to choose whether no becomes a negative, or a positive. I have too often in my life let no become a negative. I have let it fester inside of me like some disease. I am like most people I have been told no plenty, but unfortunately I have chosen to let no be something that drags me down and tells me that I am no longer good enough. Well.. I am here to tell you that NO longer will that be the case!

I am doing summer sales right now and I won’t lie to you. It is really hard. It might be one of the hardest things that I have ever done. All day I have people tell me no, I can’t do it, no I don’t want it. It wears on you. Yet what I have learned is that 10, 20, hell even a 100 no’s are worth it for that one yes. When you get that yes you’re on cloud nine. Those few yes’s a day make the no’s totally worth it.

 I imagine it’s the same with love right? I mean all I have gotten in that department is no, well except for the tinder match I got last week (holla holla for a dolla!) Anyways I imagine that love is the same way. No, Dennis, you are far too beautiful for me to date. No, Dennis, you are way too talented and loving for me. No, Dennis, I can’t date you because you’re a dimepiece and I am only a nine. I have heard it all in my day. It’s tough really and clearly all those examples are true (false). All I know is that it gets tiring. The whole dating scene get’s tiring. Anyways this isn’t a love blog so let me get to the point. I recently got told no in the love department (imagine a plane crashing into a pit of angry rattlesnakes). It sucked but I have a new plan. I am going to take that no and use it to fuel me. I am going to use that no as motivation to find my yes. Just like I use each no I get in sales to knock one more door so I can get a yes. I am going to use each no in life to find that yes, because dammit I deserve it. We all do. We all deserve to find the yes’s in our life. Whether it be for love, or work, or school, or whatever we all deserve a yes. I know I will get mine, and you will get yours too.

SO to wrap up this up no doesn’t mean you give up, it doesn’t mean you stop trying, it means no.. don’t give up keep going because your yes is just around the corner.