I’m Fat and sick of it.

No one really knows how they got fat, it sort of just happens. One day you’re spry and in excellent shape, the next you can’t see your feet anymore. I know for me it was a slow gradual process that crept up on me like a velociraptor hunting that one guy with the shorts off of Jurassic Park. I remember at the beginning of my senior year in High School I was pretty hot. (see this photo is proof.)

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 I can sort of point out the beginning of the decline, I believe that it all started out when I was working at wingers. I would eat every time I would work… So you know I got fat. Then I served an LDS mission, and that most definitely did not help, at all… So I went from a nice 165 to 215 in a matter of 3 to 4 years. OOPS.

So on to the matter of losing that weight. It is easier said than done of course. When you first get your stomach and double chin, you hate them, but the longer they are with you the more you tolerate them. Then the more people tell you to lose weight the more attached you get to them. Thoughts like, pfft it shouldn't matter what I look like, or real women love men with curves, dominate your brainwaves. They may or may not be true but that isn't the point. I guess what I am trying to say is that losing weight is like breaking up with that significant other that is obviously horrible for you, but you are so comfortable with them that you don’t want to leave. Also have you tried exercising when you are out of shape? It sucks. I recently had a friend interview me for her class and she asked what was the main thing that kept me from going to the gym and working out, I replied by saying that I am fat. My fat is keeping me from the gym, it prevents me from doing a lot of things.

I am not super fat by any means, so I can’t sympathize with those who are really struggling with their weight, but I can relate to the feeling of shame when I look in the mirror. It has taken a lot to be able to stay confident with the extra 40 pounds I carry. I can understand why it is so hard for people to go to the gym and get fit. Have you been to the gym? It’s like only really healthy, and fit people are there. Kevin Hart does a good job of explaining this concept here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kXokDYkvQIE

Working out is hard, and it takes effort and time. I think the biggest thing for me is the fact that I don’t see immediate results. I want to see the change now, and with exercise requires patience. But I have decided that losing weight is something that I want. I am ready to do what it takes. I have a goal of losing 40 pounds this year. I want to get down to 165 again. I am willing to do what it takes. At the beginning of the year I weighed 213 pounds. I am now at 202 pounds. So only 37 pounds to go!

Now one thing I want to make clear. If you want to lose weight you need to do it for you. I am no expert on the matter but I do know that it has to be your choice. I don’t know if you can do It for someone else. If you are happy with your weight then by all means stay where you are at, but if you want a change in life, then do something about it. It may not happen today, you may want it to happen but you may not be able to get the oomph to work out and change your lifestyle for a while. Don’t fret though, if you want it, the rest will come. The first key is DESIRE, once you get the desire, the action will happen sooner or later. As for me personally I am sick of being fat, I want to be super sexy once again. That is my reason, and the fact that I want to wear fitted suits. We all must find our own reason sooner or later to do anything. I hope everyone has a good week and accomplishes all that they set out to do.